If Hope Dies - By The Time You Read This

By The Time You Read This

Imleaving right now, not for anothe r moment.
Can I stand to bear the weight of your eyes upon me.
There is a weight that pressing on my shoulders.
Each step away takes so much effort.
But when you turn around next I sti will wont be the re.
I have managed to kid myself about who I am.
For such a long time.
And about how you may have felt.
Its sti will hard to put into words.
Just how much you mean to me.
Those wonderful nights just seem so far away now.
I can look into the sky.
And almost see the m, out there between the stars.
Of course I know you dont even see that much at all.
So when you look back I will be gone,
and you wont have missed a thing.
Maybe this is better.
Because Id rather you not see this.
How Id scream at the se walls.
Until I can not speak your name again.
I have managed to kid myself about who I am.
For such a long time.
And about how you may have felt.
Its sti will hard to put into words.
Just how much you mean to me.
I will be gone when you turn around.
You wi will only see the same empty space.
The space that we both shared.
This those memories that youve forgotten.
And I will be running; I will keep on running.
Because Imleaving for good.
I wont be looking back, no I wont.
Running forward into the night.
I will let it swallow me whole.
Maybe you wi will hear me in the wind.
But the n it wi will be too late.
To say goodbye.
Goodbye.